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There is this song by Lifehouse that i truly lovevery much.
Its called Blind. Somehow, the tune and the whole feel of the song makes you just want to listen to it all over and over again! haha.
Here are the lyrics.
Blind
You can click play to listen to the chorus
I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as he turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried
Chorus:
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you is blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go
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I luurrve it!
Alan gagged and reeled at
10:45 AM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
Wow, its been such a long time since i updated my blog. Lots have happened in this past 2 weeks. Haha more importantly, my men from PTP/BMT 12th Mono have successfully converted to become Guardsmen.
Yeap, on 290406, they officially donned their Khaki Berets and Guards Tabs, signifying they're Elite Status as Elite Soldiers of the Singapore Army. I trust that they earned this tab with pure grit and determination. I'm proud of them in every single way possible for coming thus far and not giving up.
The feeling is just so heartwarming, seeing the sea of khaki ont he parade square. It made me reminicise how just barely 5 months ago, these guys were but just blur/chao recruits. With no hair to show for. Now, they're stronger, fitter and definitely mentally stroger to face the challenges of the training ahead that will ultimately lead them to fighting ATEC.
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Apart from that, the past 2 wweeks have been hectic with much outfield traing starting with the ATEC umpiring for 3 Guards. Then just last week, we kicked off the week with Navigation followed by a 2 D 1 N section prof test which i can confidently say, my section did very well in.
The navigation was in Lower Mandai and the vegetation there was just too much of a killer in that it was thick and totally unbashable. But when there is a will, there is a way, so with perseverance, i managed to navigate my section through the thick vegetation to emerge from the exercise victors. Hahaha. For both the day and night navigation, we came in top 3. =P
For the section Prof test, my PC commented that my section (as compared to the other 3 int he platoon) did very well in the assessment, something which i feel, my section can be proud of. =)
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Dear and i are begining to settle down, minor worries are being ironed out and emotionally, we're becoming more stable. Love is not without its pitfalls, but through such little pitfalls, we learn more about eachother and the love that we share. The most important thing is to always love with an open heart as we must all realise that everyone wants something out of love and we cannot always just take, but not give in return. We must exhibit understanding and trust, so that we do not allow the situation to blow up in our faces, causing hurt and grief. When we clearly know we love eachother, nothing else should come in the way of that.
Darling i treasure and love you very much. =P
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The month of may till end-June is gonna be packed with Platoon Traing after platoon Training. Haha Its gonna be like SISPEC days all over again, what with long marches, early insertions, platoon deliberate attacks etc. But as i alway have, i will give my 100% in everything that i do. Because why? This time its just not myself that depends on myself, i have the lives, minds and moral of 6 men under my charge and i simply cannot let them down. I must smile when i feel sad, i must walk when my legs cannot walk anymore, i must motivate them when i myself is demoralised. i must. Why? Because i'm their Section Commander, their leader, their BROTHER.
1211 to 121, Surge forth with courage and determination. For he who fights with me this day shall be my BROTHER
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Rawdy, O-Rah!
Alan gagged and reeled at
10:19 AM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
Bliss, serenity, love, enjoyment and tranquility. Some words to describe my day yesterday. The weather was nothing less than perfect as the both of us tumbled around inside the tent, enjoying the view and the breeze. Haha
What more is there to say than that i'm madly in love with her. Shes just the right kind and amount of sweet. Shes everything i'm looking ofr. haha serious!
I hope more of such relaxing and wonderful days lie ahead of us.
Love you very much. =)
And being the sweet person that she is, she made this for me. =)
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It is my blessing to be able to love her. =) Truly..
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Alan gagged and reeled at
4:26 PM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
I've been having many weird dreams of late. From what used to be an empty blank bubble, my mind is now permeated with thoroughly queer and interesting scenarios -_-". Hmm, i really wonder whats the meaning of all these. Perhpas it because i've been sleeping too little of late and my mind is running amock? Haha, i fail to comprehend that possibility.
Perhaps the only really interesting part of this week is the boat ride that i got to enjoy during the men's coastal swim on tuesday. Being the Boat commander, i was tasked to launch all the safety boats and bring it to Pasir Ris Beach from seletar camp. Once we were out to the straits of Singapore, i just told the boatmen to crank the throttle all the way, sending the boat in a mad, hurried dash across the sea. It was exhiliration, purely multiplied and magnified.
However, after that short span of adrenaline, it was to be 4 hours of pure boredom as i watched the trainees swim 2 km in the open seas. Sitting in the boat and putting myself at the mercy of nature, i had to bark instructions and ensure safety of the guys (so that no one drowns). Then of all times, i'm not sure if its a blessing or a curse, it had to rain. Compounded by the fact that i did not bring along my Goretex jacket, i was left stranded in the rain, barebodied, freezing my toenails off. Haha. Kinda reminded me of my Taiwan experience of Ex. Warrior during my SISPEC training days. The rain stopped, then the sun came out, delivering a massive blow of hot, scorching sun, only for it to rain again.
Well, naturally, after the whole bashing my nature, i was left sunburnt AND freezing. Hahah
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For this whole week i've been listening to this song by Li Sheng Jie, called
"shou fang kai/手放开/letting go". Its a very ncie song about how a guy locves his girl too much, but he finds it pointless to carry on with the relationship, hence his last way of showing hat he loves his girl is to let her go. Its a very powerful song that evokes alot of emotions. Haha, but the lyrics are so packed that if you don't listen hard enough, you will not be able to pick up the lyrics and its meaning. It is only when you read the lyrics, do you then fully appreciate the song.
手放开
我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开城门对着夜幕发呆
看着往事 一幕一幕 再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱 我学不来 眼睁睁看情变坏
眼睁睁看情感慨
不能给你未来 我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待 当眼泪留下来
伤已超载 分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台 有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌 写着等待
不能给你未来 我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待 当眼泪留下来
伤已超载 分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋 最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台 有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌 写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋 最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台 有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌 写着等待
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
哽咽的声音彷佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖 还在胸怀 我无法轻易推开
我无法随便走开 感情中专心的人容易被伤害
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Tomorrow is my 1st month with dear. =) How time seems to pass so fast. Haha, but i really do wish that i'll be able to spend more quality time with her, not just alwasy scrimping out 1-2 hours in the evening. Haha. =) Dear, ILY. =)
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Some random funny pics of the day.
Brings a whole new meaning to "Emoticons"
Alan gagged and reeled at
9:31 AM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
It has been a throughly hectic and tirign week for me. Rigth after Battalion Games day (for which i helped Alpha get a Gold for War-cry) i had to go back camp the following morning for COS duty.
Then somehow or another, encik was extra stringent on that day and i got screwed badly due to the inadequatcies of the individual PDS. As a consequence, encik threw me an extra duty on the following friday.
Thursday was Guards Day and just like for battalion games day, i won for 1 Guards a another Gold medal for war-cry for whihc with my team from Alpha, we represented 1 Guards. 1 Guards won the title again though, having an almost clean sweep of all the medals. =) We won a record number of Golds. Haha.
So the day after Guards day, i had to stay back in camp to do COS duty while the rest of the commanders could book out to go home. I mean, BOTH times, i borught glory and won something for the unit and the coy, and both times i was so called "rewarded" with an extra duty. The thing is, last Sunday's duty wasn't even supposed to be mine. I was doing a favour to one of my fellow commanders and bah, got thrown an extra duty instead. Where is the justice!
Then yesterday, while i was COS, i had to lead the platoon int he fast march. IMMEDIATELY after the fast march, i had to take care of area cleaning, then change into smart 4 from a wet dirty long 4 to do cookhouse duty. Standing in the cookhouse for 2 bloody hours, feeling all exhausted and overworked (due to the many late nights i suffered preparing for the Guards Day). Almost immediately after cookhouse duty, its into my long 4 and webbing again to bring my section out for section training.
All in all, my whole week has been filled with stress, both mental and physical and late nights. But then again, i have a gold medal in my cupboard plus a Guards dry-fit shirt upon my shoulders. so i guess i won't complain much.
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Todayt after i booked out from camp from COS duty, i met dear and we went to EXp together to talk a walk and just laze the afternoon away in eachother's arms.
Being the tired me, i fell asleep alot of times, but dear was patient and understainding enough to watch me sleep. =) Thank you darling.
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Yesterday while cleaning up encik;s office i read this creed he had in his office.
It is friggin good. i LURVE it.
THE CREATION
(Special Forces Version)
And the Lord spoke forth unto the heavens and said, "let there be Airborne." The earth did tremble and quake and the waters did rise up and the clouds did part and there came forth a multitude of parachutes that filled the sky. God looked down and saw this was good. And they were good; they were AIRBORNE.
God then spake forth unto the land and said: "Let there be Rangers." And all at once the day turned into darkness, and the winds did howl, and mountains crumbled into the sea, and the great rocks did part, and there sprang forth a horde of Mephistopheles' disciples wearing Ranger tabs and carrying all sorts of deadly weapons. God looked down and saw that this was bad. And they were bad; they were RANGERS.
Then God spoke forth thrice, unto the sky, the earth, and the sea, and said: "Let there be Special Forces." Lightning did flash and echo across the sky. Mountains spewed molten rock and rained fire upon the land. Tidal waves surged against the shore. Despair, disorder and turmoil did prevail. Forthwith, there did appear a band of twelve extraordinary men. A few came from beneath the waves; others jumped from the sky; and more still stalked silently from the dense forests. Each one was in camouflage battle dress, wearing a Green Beret. Working together, they brought peace unto the land. God looked down and saw that this was amazing. And they were amazing; they were SPECIAL FORCES.
Besides himself, God now spake forth again and commanded: "Let all ye that be weak in mind and body, arise and go forth." And lo, from the abyss they crawled forward with indecision and limped weakly upon the earth. God looked down and shook His head, for this was pathetic. And they were pathetic; they were LEGS.
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Will update better ones next time. I';m tired, over worked and underpaid. Haha but i have a loving and understanding girl by my side and nothing else makes me happier than that. I love her. So so much
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Alan gagged and reeled at
7:16 PM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
You know it within you, that deep sense of connection, that sense of longing for someone, the acute familiarity of the person with you. When words need not be said to express how you feel, you just know and feel it within you.
It is only at this time, that you realise, that you have found the one
I truly believe that she is the one for me. We click almost like two pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, snuggly and tightly.
We share common interests, have the same ideals, same likes and dislikes, same outlook on life and almost the same principles.
But above all, we share one thing in common. Love and affection.
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We need no material proofs to validate the love between us, all we need is honesty, truth and understanding.
I love her for who she is, i truly do and i know i will in time to come. She is almost perfect in my eyes.
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Anyway, my War-Cry group for 1 GDS Battalion Games day wont he first proze, will upload the pics when i get it. =D
Schedule has been hectic of late with 3 weekend COS duty in a row. Phew.
GAMBATE!
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Alan gagged and reeled at
2:19 AM
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..:: Semper Paratus, Sine Mora ::..
Bliss, serenity, love, enjoyment and tranquility. Some words to describe my day yesterday. The weather was nothing less than perfect as the both of us tumbled around inside the tent, enjoying the view and the breeze. Haha
