Hmm, havent been blogging lately.

Lots of things happened during the week.

Cannot rem most of them though.

Hmmm, ok.

Been hanging out with my fellow PPCs,

Rena and Loke.

Lol, we call ourselves the Power Puff Councillors,

hence PPC.

I'm Blossom, Loke "Buttercup and Rena "Bubbles."

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I realise how many friends i've neglected during yhe entire time i was attached.

Now that i'm signle, i'm able to make more friends,

w/o fear or worry of an obligaton to fullfill.

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Today's chem prelim pract was fine.

Didnt managed to finish in time.

Friggin FA 6, took so long for me to identify.

Dang.

Planning was so standard, so simple! I knew how to do it.

But could only complete it haldfway thru.

In vain.

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Went to Toa Payoh Park after Tcher's Day rehearsal.

Crapped and chatted with Firmin, Maryann and Loke.

Had a great time singing hymns and learning more abt Catholicism.

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Been feeling rather empty nowadays.

But it will pass, like how it has.

2 months and 1 day of being a singleton.

Bittersweet i guess.

But well, life has to go on yea?

The more you whine about it, in the beginning people will feel sorry for you.

Sympathise with you

Console you.

But if you drag it on, extend it far beyond a reasonable duration.

It becomes a nuisance.

A liability to the friendship.

Life has to and MUST go on,

even if it means a walk down a path coated with glass shards.

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I still do think of her, in fact i dreamnt of her last night.

But as of now, it is all a memory.

Wonderful memories of a love we once shared,

and enjoyed together.

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Been listening to Eva Cassidy, she is one of the few singers i dare say,

Sings with her heart and has deep passion for the songs she sings.

Too bad she died from Melanoma in 1996.

I love her, simply do.

She makes painful, lonely nights bearable for me.

=)

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Been surfing blogs of her friends. Allows me to know the happenings in her life,

even if it means in a vicarious way.

But increasingly, i feel adamant to stop it.

I only end up feeling upset and hurt.

I must think positive and carry on with life.

Everyone must, thats how the world works.

People move on despite their difficulties.

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I made many wrong decisions after the break up,

decisions that affected my attitudes, my friendships etc.

Some were good, some were plain dumb and stupid.

Now that i'm more or less out of the "rebound" season.

I feel more confident making friends.

Especially female friends. PLATONIC female friends

=)

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I wonder how will my life be like after i enter NS.

What will happen to my friends, what will happen to her,

will she be able to cope with life?

Will i be able to fulfill my dreams of becoming a good officer?

Only time will tell.

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So coincidental, met Marcus and Bo Wen from Camp Sapphire 2003.

We were like old bunk mates, chatting abt our Camp Sapphire memories.

How time flies, so fast and it has nearly been a year.

It was held during the Nov holidays, and now its August already.

But we chatted as if, the camp just ended like a month ago.

Nice reliving such memories.

I wonder if next time, army will be like that.

Meeting up with old BMT bunk mates and just chatting the night away.

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Rena has been feeling down lately, and i can understand her position.

Cause i put WQ thru the same ordeal.

Interacting with Rena made me think alot about having relationships.

Especially at such an age.

She also made me realise, how important it is to have one's freedom in a rs.

Cause, if a person loves you, no matter what happens,

she/he will never leave you.

Having a Rs is like holding sand.

Hold it gently and it stays in your hand, secure and undisturbed.

But once you grip it too tightly, it starts to slip away.

And after awhile, all thats left are red, sore indentations made by the sand grains

that have been gripped too tightly against your palm.

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This is a particularly long entry. Sorry abt that.

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My academic life is getting back on track, i feel more confident in school

able to absorb things better as well.

Glad =)

Sigh, sometimes, miss the feeling of being able to hug someone.

Make the person feel loved, secure and worry-free.

But looking at the current situation with the impending As and

NS,

It will take at least 2-3 yrs before i can experience it all over again.

The magic of falling in love

and being loved in return.

But we must always remain prudent about RS.

Nice to have, but the pain of letting go, is just too...

painful, unbearable.

Killing.

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Took this off the bible.

Corinthians 13 : 1-8


If I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but do not have love, I have become a

noisy gong or a clanging cymbal.


If I have {the gift of} prophecy, and know all mysteries and all knowledge; and if I have all faith,

so as to remove mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.

And if I give all my possessions to feed {the poor,} and if I surrender my body to be burned,

but do not have love, it profits me nothing.


Love is patient, love is kind {and} is not jealous; love does not brag {and} is not arrogant,

account a wrong {suffered,} does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth;

bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.


Love never fails; but if {there are gifts of} prophecy, they will be done away; if {there are}

tongues, they will cease; if {there is} knowledge, it will be done away.

1Cr 13 : 13

But now faith, hope, love, abide these three; but the greatest of these is love.

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Take care people.

Bye~~

Signing off

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